I came to you with an open mind--too open. Not being a part of this particular conflict, but just an impartial observer, I wanted to learn about both sides. I was learning BOTH languages. I was studying BOTH cultures. I knew that this was all bigger than me, but somehow I thought maybe one day I'd be able to help resolve it all.

I was only 12 years old. So were you.

We weren't friends, or anything. We'd never met before. It was your assignment to show me around your school. I think we both thought that we could be friends.

You walked me through the hallways and discussed what you did at school and what you learned. You were learning Algebra. Hey, me too! You were learning biology, literature. We had so much in common.

At some point, we came to a glass-enclosed display. All I saw was cloth, stained and torn. I looked to you for an explanation.

And then your eyes changed. You grew dark, angry. It frightened me.

"Three weeks ago, three innocent men were killed. They are martyrs. This is their clothing here–the clothing they were wearing when they were brutally shot. You see their blood on their shirts. You see the bullet holes. We keep this here to remind us of our enemies and their wickedness. It reminds us of their unprovoked brutality towards us. They must be conquered. We must prevail."

My breath caught in my throat. I considered telling you that you were wrong. Your eyes challenged me to do so. Thank heavens I didn't--I likely wouldn't have made it out of the country alive.

But I had been downtown the day those men lost their lives. These men, whose clothing hung here in a shrine, were no heroes. They had mercilessly slaughtered nine truly innocent people--three of them children--before the police had finally arrived and stopped them with their bullets. These three men were not martyrs, they were murderers.

"But you're just children!" I said, instead. I had been forced to see blood, bullets, bombs. But I didn't think that all children should have to. Certainly not at school!

"How else will we learn?"

And there it was--the great unbridgeable difference: My schooling taught me history. Yours taught you lies.
I couldn't blame you for believing the lies. It was all you had ever heard. I couldn't blame your friends, your parents, your teachers. It was all they had ever heard.

And now I was terrified. I couldn't breathe. I had to leave. Your hatred, though not yet aimed at me, was suffocating and I couldn't be there anymore. This place, this evil place, where children were taught to hate, was imprisoning me and I had to escape. I wanted to beg you to escape with me, though I knew you never would. I wanted to rescue you from this conflict, but you were too deeply entrenched. So I left you there.

We knew we could never, ever be friends.

I never said that the other side was right, but you are so very wrong.

And now I'm 28, as are you, and I think of you from time to time. I'm married. I have children. We live a safe, comfortable life. And you? Did you survive your hatred, or has it killed you yet, as it has killed so many of your countrymen? Is your life full of terror? Do you have children? Do you teach them what you were taught? Of course you do. You don't know anything else. If you live long enough to raise another generation, that generation will be consumed with the same hate.

Someone has to break this cycle. I no longer think that it will be me. I can't. I don't understand. I feel helpless and hopeless. The more I learn, the less I know.

But I make an oath, here and now, that my children will never learn any form of hatred from me. And if that's the best I can do, it will be a lot.