So, I think it's going to happen.

I've always had a plan, always followed my plan. It went like this. Be a good student, get good grades, get into drafting classes in high school, find a college, get my degree, and live happily ever after. I'm sure there was supposed to be a guy in there somewhere but I didn't know how to plan that.

So I'm at the happily ever after part of the story. It's not what I expected. I thought I would figure it out when the time came. I started looking at jobs and trying to figure out what I want to do. I was feeling reluctant to really try to get a job. It all seemed so permanent, trapping. Nothing felt right.

I started complaining and Piper suggested I go work at the Grand Teton Lodge Company. I looked at the page, thought about it, and decided to at least apply. What would be the harm in that?

The more I thought about it the more I wanted to go. It would be a seasonal job in an amazing environment. It sounded perfect. With some advice and encouragement from Piper I got a phone interview. Then I got a follow up phone interview.

Well, to cut out some details, I got the job. Starting in the middle of May I will be in Wyoming. I'm going to go early and help out in the kitchen. Then, when Colter Bay Village opens for the season I will be transferring there. I haven't gotten all the details but basically I would be taking food across Jackson Lake to Elk Island. Cooking, giving a little speech about the island to the tourist, and I don't know what else.

Leave everything behind, move forward without being stuck, adventure, excitement, being scared. Getting to be outside after being inside behind my studio desk for four years. I can't express all the great things I feel about it. I know it's going to be amazing.

To see pictures I've stolen go to my blog. The real one, http://newnorth1.blogspot.com/

I've had a couple of people ask me about my name just lately. So I decided to go ahead and post about it. It's kind of sad actually but here goes.

I never thought about blogs. I mean, I knew they existed but I never really thought about using one to talk about me. A place where I could be completely selfish. Meeee!

Well I was looking around a book forum on Myspace. Yes, I used to spend alot of time there. One comment caught my eye and I clicked over to there page. It belonged to a guy who called himself 'The Evacuee.'

On his page was the beginings of a story about a blind date he was set up on. So, at the end, I clicked over to his blog. After snooping around a bit I was hooked. I started leaving comments and signed them as 'nn' so he could connect the comments.

I got the 'nn' because they are the last two letters of my last name. I know, not real creative but at that point I never planned on having a blog. Of course I ended up figuring out I could have a blog. A little place of my own.

I had to keep 'nn' in the name so that was my starting point. The Evacuee has since disappeared. Sometimes he comes back after a break but I don't think he will this time.

Alright, so back to the name. Well, I actually explained in my first post ever titled, "Awkward." Since I've reached 200 posts I will paste it here for you. That is if you haven't given up on this post yet. It has gotten rather long.

Awkward

"It's always awkward starting new things so I've decided to just start by why i picked new north as my name.

When i was a little kid, because i still think of myself as a kid, i always used to think north was which ever way i was facing. I remember a time when i knew i was wrong but really couldn't quite figure out how i was wrong. I would look at maps and north always pointed the way i was directed but i new north couldn't change directions like i did. Eventually i figured it out, but it took a surprisingly long time.

I don't know how many people, besides me, have had similar experiences because, of course, i would never admit to not understanding the idea of north.

Sadly this still affects me today. Subconsciously, i think of north as being in front of me. I know it isn't but there's still that thought. Well it seems i am always traveling south, so i have confused myself into thinking south is north. I understand how to read maps and everything but i am just turned upside down.

So to solve my problem i have decided south is my new north! Now if i can only get the road signs changed!"

I didn't capitilize my 'I's back then.

So there you have it. Although the truth is, I just liked the way it sounded.

newnorth signing out :p

another one already?

yeah, i'm all about the quantity. heh

I am so bored (this is my attempt at not calling someone to complain about my boredom). I don't feel like staying home but most my friends have moved. The people left here are the party type. I never got that. I don't want to get trashed. I just want to hang out with a few friends, talk, eat, drink (ok well just a little), and relax. Eww a fire pit would be great!

But all the "mature" people around here are hanging out with their boyfriends. ugh!

I've pretty much texted everyone.

Looks like I've officially been downgraded to a Sunday friend.