I am a little burnt out, I think. i have been working 50 - 60 hours a week since January of 2006 and I am very tired. It is all for a good cause I know. Randy gets to stay home with the babies. They are doing wonderfull. Henna is brilliant and happy and she LOVES her Daddy. Zane is creative and smart. He thinks it is the end of the world if Randy leaves just long enough to go to the store. When Tyler is here Randy gets to spend actual time with him doing stuff. I think it is great for their relationship.

But I am starting to just get tired. Maybe if I take a vacation this fall I will feel better. I just feel like there are never enough hours in the day. And even on the weekend when I am doing nothing I am thinking, " Oh God, tomorrow I go back." And I like my job, so it sucks that I am thinking that. Maybe I will start to do meditation at night or something. God, who knows how I'll find the time for that...lol See?

Some days I get bitter, like, " Look at these kids, they love Randy more than me." I try not to do that too much though. Randy and I are a team and we are equal in this family. It is OUR money and every little thing is OUR decision. In some ways I think all of this is harder on him that is is on me. He kicks ass though. He is the best Daddy in the world. I was even thinking about getting him something for mother's day. lol

But we have a plan in the works. I think that what we are doing is absolutely right. The plan is good I think and I am optimistic about it. The kids are awesome and I wouldn't trade this family for anything, so what am I complaining about?