Sorry Lad's still waiting for internet connection and having to go to the library every so often.
I'll be back soon I promise.
Lollipop

I'm finally moving to an adapted bungalow across the other side of town.

I'm really happy and ready for it now, life in this little bungalow has been very hard.

My problem is why do the people you love the most have to alway's find a problem aout your life just when you most stressed or at your lowest ebb.

My teenagers don't want to move, which to a certain extent I can understand, they've grown up on this side of town, but you can walk to the other side in about 20 mins. So their not that far away from what they've grown up around. Plus the fact their old enough to find their way from one place to another on their own.

In approx 2 1/2 years time they'll all be a college and I'll be on my own anyway, is it only me thinking ahead????????

My Mother has to have her say to, not I'm happy for you, you deserve it or anything like that. 'Your not spending time with your children' was the greating I got this morning, not how did the interview with the college go?

I haven't been as luckly as my Mother as far a marrage is concerned, my parents meet when they were 14 years old and have been married 47years, a fact of which I am very proud to tell the whole world.

I have two failed marrages behind me but I've been in a relationship for over 3 years now and on the whole this man makes me very happy, so why can't my family be happy for me? I'll have to ponder that one for myself I think.

This was time I was so looking forward to and at the moment I wish it wasn't happening.

Sorry for being on a downer everyone but I just need to sound off a bit to someone.

Live, laugh, Love

• Thou shalt not be perfect, or even try


• Thou shalt not be all things to all people,
  or even try


• Thou shalt sometimes leave things undone
  that need to be done


• Thou shalt not spread thyself to thin


• Thou shalt learn to say no


• Thou shalt schedule time for thyself and
  supportive network


• Thou shalt be boring, unattractive and
  inattentive at times


• Thou shalt forgive thyself for making mistakes


• Especially, thou shalt not be thy own worst enemy


• Thou shalt not take life too seriously

Don't assume because I look well
That I feel well.
Looks can be very deceiving.
Many days I look great but I feel terrible.
Don't ask me how I feel unless you really want to know.
You may heara lot more than you are prepared to listen to.
Don't tell me you know how I feel.
No-one knows how anyone else feels.
Two people with the same disease may feel totally different.
Don't tell me about your Aunt Gertrude
And her MS and how well she managed in spite of it.
I am not Aunt Gertrude and I'm doing my best.
Don't tell me" It could be worse."
Yes, it could be ,but I don't need to be reminded.
Don't decide what I am capable of doing.
Allow ME to decide what activities I can do.
There may be times I make the wrong
Decision, and if I do I'll know it soon enough.
Don't be upset that I cannot ease my problems.
It won't do any good for any of us to be miserable.
Don't assume that because I did a certain activity yesterday
that I can do it again today.
MS is ever changing.

Do realise that I am Angry and
frustrated with the disease -
NOT WITH YOU