Today its only one leg, but I don't much feel like cheering.
The pain of myself and my children is all I seem to be hearing.

I am limping with one leg and with the other a shuffle
For all that's good I pray for no scuffle.

I have sworn by monday I will take drastic measures,
but even the thought of the bill gives me no pleasure.

I find myself some where lost in pain, let me sleep lie alone
just don't make me feel it again.

Amazing all the words to describe pain, shooting burning, stabing, all you truely mean
sounds like a relay from a 911 dispatcher to help at a nasty scene

In a way there is a brutal battle going on inside
like a creepy lil' shadow knowing just where to hide.

So many skeptics I have met along the way
I'd love to see how they would react being in my body for a day.

So this is where I'm at and the place I am in ,not for the week of heart but this where I start.

Turns out my new pain doc went to school with my last.Also she remembered the norseman when he met her and she was the one who started the surgery that now is the reason he can walk.

She seems nice enough, she will even continue my neuro meds as I may have a wait for a neurologist. She did tell me that if things get worse to go to the ER and trust me if I loose anymore balance or the spasms spread, I'll be visiting there.

One of cousins is here for the night and this time the girls did spray on hair color. I think unless you have a crew cut or mohawk, you need two bottles.

Blue hair would match my skirt for the re-wedding, but I think the nose ring speaks for its self although I may put a crystal in.

I hope I look half as good as the model. Not one bulge on her.

The new doc decided I needed to be on cymbalta and I had actually asked about it, but as I am finding out, with the meds and chemical brain changes, M.S. is known to cause depression and any hopefully will help my fatigue level.

I am not too proud to admit I need meds to regulate my biochemical reaction. M,S. just sucks and being a disease you had no choice in, sucks even more.

So still trying to be aware of the choices I can and have made.Moving cross country, getting re-married and trying to make it work are all choices.

I chose this life I am leading, I'm sure there was help and nudges on the way. I like to thing about life as a coloring book, the basic direction is there, coloring outside the lines of the page, well it happens,but you can always start again.

Break out the sparklers and fire works and cheer
we are still free in this country this year

Strawberries and blueberries with a dash of cream
and we've got the colors of the american dream

The oaths of our forefathers remain true
for my family and your and even you

Water and parks and recreation a fine day
what ever you do, I hope you do play

so not much I have to say except, happy Independance Day!

I found it at soft surroundings and it is sooo hippie.
the ceremony will be in a beautiful chapel and my necklace made by my mother in law will work nicely.

Its going to be short, but sweet and all involved on this coast will get to see a re-affirmation.

Oh, to go barefoot with a slave anklette, or one with bells.

OH and aren't those the ugliest toes you've ever seen?

Anyho, I was on blogtalkradio and I have been asked to be a featured guest at the end of the month. I always hoped my pain and experiences could somehow help another person. Just one person would do.

So, Duketate had been bugging me to call in, so I guess its good that I did.

I always thought my husbands story was more inspirational, maybe I should write his book. Lol,I am not all that good.

So, if you wander what I sound like in person, probably all nasally ,you can listen on blogtalkradio for yesterdays show.

Nodragon dedicated a quote to me today. I of course will share it to everyone with adversity. I am by far only one of the many broken people here, but life stages happen to all of us. They are difficult and sometimes frightening, but those who chose to work through them are ultimately better off. Can't say I am there yet, but I'll continue to try. Thank you nodragon between the pain and other things that was just what I needed today!